It's Christmas right?

Lately I've been feeling sad and frustrated with everything like every single thing. It just pains me to have my parents doubt me when it comes to my attitude and stuff like they don't even know what they're saying for the most part. Sometimes I just want to laugh at them cause they don't get what I'm going through and I can't even explain it to them because I think it's just a waste if time and energy. I've been grumpy lately not because I'm not getting the iPhone 5 but because he said something that really hurt me but I chose to keep quiet cause I really don't like explaining myself, I just don't. Well probably you would think I'm nuts for feeling like this but everything just piled up. Every hurtful comment from everyone just sank in and it's just painful to hear them from people who don't even know you but it hurts more when people who are close to you say it. I've been feeling crappy for a very very long time but I chose to keep quiet and show everyone that I'm strong and that I could take in every hurtful joke(for them it was) but I had it I'm done I can't even handle this anymore and it sucks because it's Christmas!! I should be happy! But I'm nowhere close to happy. Not even feeling anything at all.